Archive for July 24th, 2006

Yes, again. I know. But I can’t help it.

I’ve been unable to concentrate on my writing for weeks. I’m trying. Really. But it’s just not working. And I want–need–to finish the book. I need the accomplishment of getting it done and knowing that I’ve given it my all and produced the best story that I can. Even if, in the end, it gets rejected by every publisher out there.

My boys will be starting school again in two weeks. On the one hand, it’s a good thing because I’m  hoping to be able to concentrate better….but on the other hand, I’m feeling the same gut twisting anxiety and loss that I feel every year when school starts up again. Will my youngest be able to handle kindergarten after two horrendously difficult years in preschool? Will my sensitive oldest be happy with a new teacher and new classmates after last year’s fabulous teacher/class? And I know that even though they drove me crazy most of the summer, I’m going to really miss having them around.

This summer has been really tough for us. I’m so tired of living with the “one teeny step forward, two giant steps back” life. I want it to be better.